I’ve been fearful.

I’ve been fearful of this blog and all my thoughts transposed onto it. 

I’ve been purposefully avoiding it because I hate the reminders of being single. 

I am doing much better lately. I just have been running away from my feelings a bit. Taking a time out and reflecting on my current state of mind. of Heart.

Right now, listening to Brendan Perry’s solo album, Ark. I got pulled into his music because of my thirst for Dead Can Dance. I was craving something new, but old. A reminder of a time in my life where Darkwave ruled supreme. 

I hooked up with a couple of guys in the past 2 weeks. They’ve been pretty good distractions. More on the both of them later. I promise. I met up with a potential date, but that fizzled out as well. (Thank you, OK Cupid.) 

I wonder if the person I’m supposed to be with next is even in this city. Things I keep thinking about that no longer consume my soul. I have to keep Hope alive, but for now, I’m going to stop looking.