I’ve been exhausted the past couple of weeks and I’m still quite tired right now. I haven’t been meeting anyone and have been in seclusion over the weekends. I’m not really moving forward as I’d hope. It’s been an incredibly slow pace.

My therapist wants me to go out and about and do small spontaneous interactions with random guys. E.g., when I’m at the supermarket and I do some small conversation with the cashier. Or go to a bar and introduce myself to a cute guy.

The thing is I’m less spontaneous in those situations because I don’t have that social/outgoing personality as some other people do. That’s just not how I’m built/wired. 

This is going to be a lot harder than I thought. Online dating is somewhat of a challenge as well. I think I’m not going work at this because I’ll just end up disappointed. I’m going to let go and be carefree. Even though I’m a planner, I can’t just plan this process. I’m too fucking analytical.