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Unrequited (Love)

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Is it possible to send my love out to the Universe and have someone drawn to me?

It’s kind of like a Wish. You put it out there and Hope that it comes true. Based on some random notion that it will come true. A Wish can be very specific and the outcome is very small with such a narrow focus.

What I’m wanting to do is to put all this Love and Energy I have in my Heart and pour it out into the Universe and see what happens. My broad focus is kind of like casting a very large net out into this small pond. I’m bound to catch something right?

The irony of all this is: I think I found someone who I think I can date. After 8 months of remorse and healing, my eyes are open to the possibilities and I found the man of my dreams.

The catch is that he doesn’t live in Seattle. He’s “visiting” from College and currently resides in the Bay Area in California. On top of that, I have a sense that he’s already taken. (Boo!) The good ones are always taken. Why is that? If the circumstances were different, I’d definitely ask him out and date him. It’s a bit unbearable to be near him and want him so badly. But I don’t want to seem so “stalker-ish” and always drool/flirt with him when he’s around. So, instead I act aloof and disinterested. (Even more ironic, right?)

One thing is for certain: I know what I want. He’s out there. (He’s here.) I just have to find someone who’s interested in me.

Here fishy, fishy.

Chris D

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ImageI forget who said “Hi” to who first, but it was back in May when I met Chris D. Yes, it was during one of my random Grindr browsing. I noticed that he was within 200 feet of me and so I suspected he was a neighbor. And i was correct!

Our first “meeting” was for coffee at the Starbucks down the street from the apartment complex. He suggested it first and so I thought – this would be cool to meet a new friend who is also a neighbor. We met down in the lobby and the first thing I noticed was how tall he was. I think his profile said 6’1″. Damn. But besides that he was definitely quite adorable!

A recent transplant from Washington, D.C., we soon hit it off chatting about his former home. For work, let me just describe him as a Director for IT systems and management. Brilliant guy. I immediately detected the “geek” streak that I’m so drawn to. That first coffee meeting was awesome! He was a gentleman and very cool. I asked a few minor probing questions about his former relationships and found out he was single too.

Fast forward to July. Chris D and I have hung out several times, going to restaurants, a couple of bars, having brunch and even watching the 4th of July fireworks together. I’ve known him for almost 3 months and yet, I still don’t really know him. I’m a little nervous to ask him about the more personal questions in life. I appreciate his friendship and feel that I don’t want to ruin anything by having a serious tone of conversation.

I could see him definitely being my type. He is my type. But I’m so wary right now. (See entry on “Vulnerability”) He’s kissed me a few times as what I describe as a “European” good-bye. But then again, my therapist did point out: How many good friends do I normally kiss good-bye?

My radar tells me I’m not his type and that I am just a good friend for him. If he were to ask me out for something more serious, I would definitely consider. For now, I think I’m just going to lay low and continue my hunt elsewhere.

I Saw You (@Bus Ride)

I Saw You (@Bus Ride)

Definitely, another of “my type”. Intellectual type, geek. Glasses are a turn on for me. Also, big plus for the slippers. Love the legs. His attire could definitely be improved. He’s straight and from the Pacific NorthWest – that much is obvious!