Last night, I was in Restorative Yoga and we did a meditation sequence with a “vision quest” that focused on the Heart space. The room was dark with sounds of breathing from the other Yogi. Each of us centered in our own transcendence. The Yogini pulled back the curtain to our creative imagination and led us through this journey.

This is what I saw.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I was alone in the darkness. I listened intently and heard the heart beat. My heart beat. Slow and steady. I was drawn to its warmth and dived within the Heart space.

 

While there, I summoned a sea creature. My spirit guide for this journey. I floated cross-legged within my beating heart. The rich dark colors surrounded me. I was in a fathomless chamber that contracted with every beat. I was alone for just a moment when the Jellyfish appeared. 

 

It floated angelically nearby – the size of balloon, its stalk and tendrils fluttering like strands of light coming off a moonlit bulb. It was pure white and transparent. Its ambient energy just humming and imitating the beating of my heart. I observed its beauty and gentle movements. It seemed curious about me and beckoned me closer.

 

In an instant, I saw images and memories flood my heart space. It was Matt. He smiled at me and spoke to me. These were echoes of times of Love. I flinched momentarily, feeling raw. I missed Matt and wanted to see him again. 

 

A space opened below – a dark void deeper within my Heart space. Some unknown chamber that held secrets yet to come. I looked at The Jellyfish and it quickly darted into the darkness and I knew I needed to follow. I banished the memories of lost love and closed my eyes and dived into the shadows.

 

I felt a warmth that surrounded me. It was water. I opened my eyes in the depth and saw that The Jellyfish which glowed white was lighting the passage. I didn’t have to swim. The Jellyfish had an invisible tether that pulled me gently along. It felt like a deep sea with only my guide and myself in its entirety. 

 

I broke through the surface of the water and found myself in a place of tranquility and serenity. The colors that surrounded me were many shades of dark blue. The Jellyfish aura surrounded me and emanated the waters around me. The shade of its light changed from white to a heavenly sky blue.

 

It emerged from the surface of the water and floated upwards as light as a feather and floated above my head, hovering with its now blue light. We were alone in this place where nothing existed. Nothing had been built. In the middle of an eternal ocean with dark blue night skies without stars. 

 

Yet, in the blink of an eye, I saw several meters ahead of me a crescent shaped beach only but the size of a small room. Another blink later, I noticed a single palm tree on the tiny island. Blink. The island of white sand seemed to expand another meter away. Each consecutive blink and the island began to grow.

 

The Jellyfish doubled in size, its tendrils stretched out towards me and it carried me out of the water. Like a balloon, The Jellyfish moved skyward and we floated to the island. It brought me back down towards the earth, and I stepped on its soft dry sand. The island was still small, but every time I blinked or took a breath another aspect of it changed. Like a blank canvas, this space was being painted by some cosmic force. 

 

Suddenly, I sensed a presence behind me. A feminine energy of great power and compassion. I turned around to face where I had come out. Like Botticelli’s Birth of Venus, a woman of remarkable, immortal beauty rose out of the waters and floated above the surface. Her feet gently stepped on the waters and she stood there smiling at me. I knew now this was the original maker who inspired Botticelli. I was staring at a Goddess. I was in the presence of Aphrodite.

 

She didn’t have to say a word. I felt her Love and her warmth. Her healing energy just swept through me. I collapsed on the sand in awe of her grace and power. I wept in her presence. Grateful for all that she had done. She gestured me to turn around.

 

There was another presence on the island. It was Andy. He smiled his lovable smile and moved quickly towards him. Hugging him close. It was so good to see him. I wasn’t alone anymore. The Goddess smiled and faded into the blue darkness.

 

Andy and I held each other in silence and he comforted me. By now, the island had grown hills in the distance. Lush vegetation had propagated everything outside of the beach. Yet, everything was still bathed in a blue tone. I looked into Andy’s eyes and he smiled at me. In my heart and mind, I knew what he was telling me: Everything is going to be alright. I pressed my head close to his chest, listening to his heart beat. Andy was now my guide. 

 

It felt like an eternity, but I knew it was only moments. My eyes closed in this peaceful surrender.

 

Andy roused me and I slowly stirred. I sensed another person on the island. Andy held my hand and walked towards an area of the island that hid that presence. I was nervous. Andy continued to comfort me. I was a bit fearful of who else was on this island. Somewhere nearby, The Jellyfish hovered, following us with its blue light.

 

Andy squeezed my hand and looked into my eyes with his charming looks. I now saw where he was leading me. Who he was leading me to. Standing there in the distance was Matt.

 

Andy moved us closer, my hand still in tow. I wanted to cry at that moment. There was Matt standing there smiling. In that instance without an exchange of words, he asked for my forgiveness and asked for my Love. Andy connected us – passing my hand into Matt’s.

 

I let go of Andy and held Matt close. We were together again. We were whole again. It was my turn to have him close to me. I never wanted to let go again… Andy stood nearby to support me. Matt in my arms to love me. Looking in the distance of this now monumental island, I saw magic before my eyes. 

 

A crystalline castle had grown from mountain hills, sparkling so magnificently beckoning all three of us. This was only a dream, right? What does this all mean? My heart space was now full.

 

We walked towards the castle and I woke up.